hemorrhoids
 
 
this time it’s
hemorrhoids,
and they’ve been
bleeding since Sunday.
 
the doctor
wants me to have
surgery,
but i’ve been
putting it off.
 
needless to say,
it’s a real
pain in the ass.
 
i’ve even resorted
to shopping in the
women’s section
in the pharmacy…
buying pads
for the blood.
 
with not one
single
shred of dignity left
i take my
prescription,
the preparation H
and the pads
up to the counter
to pay.
 
the girl looks at me
and smiles.
i can’t tell
if she’s just
being polite
or
has already figured out
that i’m useless
and old
and have
hemorrhoids.
 
unable to look her in the eye,
i pay,
walk out
and drive home,
sitting on a cushion,
 
thinking about her…
 
thinking:
it’s okay, kid…
it’s all yours, now.
 
every bit of it.
 
but don’t worry…
sooner or later
it catches up with you.
 
it always does..
 
eventually…
 
inevitably…
 
life
always gets you
in the end.



© John Yamrus