the in between
you and me,
we always talked about
we never talked about
and how to make
the future happen
from the now.
i think that's because
we would've been forced
to talk about
that we were both
couldn't make it to the future?
the summer before
the leather seats are uncomfortable,
unfamiliar to my flesh in the hot summer heat.
my legs coated in a thin sheen of sweat,
stuck to the smooth black
of the sofa while you seemed un-phased
by the move
to higher ground where higher value
concerns seemed more
i remember the way we used to sit
in a circle, criss-cross applesauce
on the white carpet floor,
picking blue lint balls from in
between the soft ruffles
as we talked about our problems, haphazardly
gossiping about the people
we surrounded ourselves with,
their names tied to nothing but the wind.
that was our choice.
i am uncomfortable on this leather seat, now,
confused how to position my legs –
should they cross? they want to bounce.
i am unfamiliar with this feeling,
the notion that i must turn my head
to see your face and read your eyes,
to get inside your mind.
it was so much easier
when all i had to do
was look up.
© Jordan Corley
Bio: Jordan Corley is a student at Penn State with a passion for the art of poetry and creative writing. She published her debut poetry collection, “battle scars," in 2018 at the age of 19. She hopes that through her writing she can reach others dealing with physical and mental illness and spread the message that they are not alone in their fight. Link to book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Jordan-Corley/e/B07M5DB328